Let’s talk… Anxiety.

One of the many reasons as to why I had stopped blogging for so long was due to my long ongoing battle with depression and anxiety.

You are probably thinking wow another person? Because there are so many people who claim to have mental health issues who probably haven’t been diagnosed because the past couple of years its become some sort of fad and some people find it “cool”. There is nothing cool or amazing about actually living with a mental illness and for those of us that do find it rather offensive when teenagers flippantly just use the word anxiety and depression in their everyday vocabulary such as- “looking at the man doing that gives me anxiety” “doing homework makes me depressed”. Depression and anxiety aren’t feelings they are illnesses. 

Both these illnesses are what I have been battling since I was a child and it wasn’t until 2 years ago that I beat depression but my anxiety is still there and after a lot of trial and error only a few days ago I finally found medication for it that is right for me. I have had counselling and therapy which only helped to a certain extent, I haven’t had any panic attacks since going through cognitive behavioural therapy but the anxiety is still there due to various traumatic events which I may open up about in another post if any of you request it. To be honest I don’t think any amount of therapy or lifestyle change will make it go away that’s why as a last resort I have turned to tablets.

It’s not just being around other people and crowds ,which people stereotype anxiety to be, I even get anxious in my own home which makes my anxiety quite severe the only time I feel safe is when my fiance is home which is for 2 days every 2 weeks as he works round the country. I have lost a lot of my friends and family due to my mental health so Jamie being home is my safe place because hes one of the few that understand and takes care of me. Luckily since taking my new pot of tablets I feel like I may finally be what people consider normal again. It’s a very strange feeling as I can’t remember the last time I felt this relaxed. 

And for those of you who may be worried that you or somebody else may have anxiety I have listed below the main signs and symptoms.

  • Irritability 
  • Fatigue
  • Excessive worrying 
  • Overthinking 
  • Paranoia 
  • Insomnia 
  • Panic attacks
  • Feeling Dizzy
  • Loss of appetite 
  • Avoiding places and people
  • Compulsive behaviour

Just remember these are just a handful of symptoms, some of these symptoms may be caused by something else so please don’t assume, instead speak to your GP and they can refer you to the right person.

Thank you for reading the short version of why I have been away for so long. If you would like me to elaborate and talk more about this topic then feel free to comment below.

Becca-anne

 

 

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20 thoughts on “Let’s talk… Anxiety.

  1. Thank you for stopping by my page and liking my posts. Sadly I can relate to you but I take comfort in knowing there are others who suffer from anxiety and depression now. You touched on something that has been bothering me for a long time. It seems everyone has depression/anxiety these days and they do use it flippantly and it minimizing the suffering of those with diagnosed depression. Like you; I have had it since I was a child and there was such a stigma in the 80’s that I never talked about for fear of people reactions. I also could relate to the fact that I am anxious all the time; with people; alone; even in my own house. I hate anxiety so much and the only thing seems to help is to write out and reach out to others. I am so happy I found your blog; I hope today you are managing you anxiety and taking care of yourself. I look forward to reading more of your blogs.

    Dave

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    1. Yes it’s something that has been bothering me for a while. I dealt with so much through school trying to cover everything up and these days people just throw it around. I find helping others and doing at least one positive thing each day helps me. Oh and reading! I take my sleeping tablets then read until I fall asleep.
      Thank you for reading my post, it’s been a while since I have blogged so I am a bit rusty!

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  2. Thank you for sharing, it can be a big step to hit the publish button but posts like this really do help! Ever since I was a child I’ve been a worrier and find it easy to get nervous and now that I think about it I wonder if I had realised more at the time whether something could have been done then to help. In 2017 I experienced panic attacks for the first time and that signaled to me how many people must suffer like this daily or weekly. I am thankful I got the panic attacks under control (it was mostly down to work stress) and I left that job and had a few counselling sessions. I still continue to be nervous but luckily I haven’t had any more panic attacks. One of the hardest parts is asking for help and reaching out to the ‘right’ people who don’t treat you as if you are strange and I’m glad you’ve found that 🙂 x

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    1. Yes I have been thinking about posting for a while but wasn’t ready to. I understand what you mean, I have had panic attacks from early childhood but because I was too young to realise what was happening. It would be when I was in crowds. My mum just thought I was playing up. It wasn’t until I got into an abusive relationship that it became crippling I had already been diagnosed with depression at the age of 16 so I went back to my doctor. My panic attacks weren’t under control until I was 22 and haven’t experience one since then. I also haven’t shown any signs of depression since then. But the anxiety is always there. Thank you for taking your time to comment 🙂 x

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      1. I’m glad you’re feeling better and the anxiety and depression isn’t as frequent (not sure if that’s the right word). I hope it continues to get better and show even less signs in future x

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    1. Thank you. The doctor that I had 2 years ago was amazing. He played a big role in treating my mental health and getting me the help I needed. He always spent extra time with me which he didn’t have to do. I think once you understand how and why your mental illness is affecting you and your triggers it becomes a lot easier to handle. I hope that you are okay. Feel free to email me if you need someone to speak to ❤

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  3. Thank you for visiting my blog and your blog is lovely too.

    As you will know from my blog I have suffered depression for some years with anxiety later.
    Medication has helped, which when prescribed was always for short term use, but to come off when I felt right to do so.
    The last time I came off my medication which was a low as before, but different tablets, it took me longer to come off. With the things that went on in my life, it did not feel right to withdraw to a lower dose. I thought at this point I was going to be pressured to come off then. But he was great and supported my wishes to reduce the final amount when ready.
    I have been off them only months and finally I feel good.

    I have accepted that I may have my moments with depression and I know my anxiety is still there, but I can live with it. It’s took me longer to accept, than I thought I had done.
    I know if it got bad again, to go back to doctors. But right now, it’s better than it has been. A new job has helped this, as the last one ripped everything about me I had left. I am finding me again and more this year.

    Congratulations on you being a mum and welcome back to the world of blogging. X

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  4. Wow… Thank you for sharing!
    This means a whole lot… I just found your blog today and I’m looking forward to more of these things.
    I’ve been through these things before… Well this is not a teenager who finds the word depression and anxiety cool, this is a teenager who has gone through the gnashing of teeth and struggle that comes from these things.
    Funny thing is that here in Nigeria,we have a whole lot of young people living with these things and they don’t even know it. Some,their parents don’t take it serious…most times,they feel like depression is for foreigners and it sounds foreign for a Nigerian teenager to walk up to his or her parent and say, ” Mom,Dad… I think I’m depressed.” They’d look at you like you’re a different specie who needs the understanding of another specie like it. They almost don’t take it serious but few parents actually do and I’m so grateful for those parents.
    My battle of depression was a fight alone… Just me and me.
    Before God came into the picture.
    So for you to have done this, it means you’re a strong and beautiful woman. This is just something you have to fight and overcome… It’s not constant except if you want it to.
    I just started my blog few days … You might like to check it out, loveteenbeauty.WordPress.com.
    Goodluck in your new found Life.

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    1. Wow it is interesting to know how the taboos of mental health affect people from different countries. Luckily in the UK our society has come a long way but unfortunately not everyone is educated enough to know that a mental illness is the same as a physical illness

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